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Today I Yelled

3/17/2015

 
I yelled. And it felt shitty. My sweet girl was scared. I was mad. Really mad and incredulous and irritated. And mad! "Just do your fucking homework," I yelled as I slammed a little pink eraser down on the table. It feels awful to lose your cool. If it's never happened to you, then stop reading and go to some other blog where the author is perfect. Oh, wait there exists no such person? Hah! Then keep reading, because it will happen to you one day. Probably. 

I stormed back to my computer where I was futilely trying to print my completed tax forms (I can't file electronically this year because my (and my entire family's) identity was stolen and my taxes filed by some A-hole bad guy. But that's another post). I couldn't get it to print, then I did and I ran out of paper and I printed on the back of old Christmas paper. Then I ran out of ink and had to replace a cartridge. Oh. My. God!!! Why is life sometimes so difficult?!

No wonder I was pissed. Probably it didn't have much to do with A and her homework after all. Or it did and she's just so empathic that she felt my stress and took it on and turned into a little stress ball herself and therefore couldn't do her homework without a lot of tears and whining. Which I had no patience for because I was stressed. Damn it!!! Parenting is so effing difficult. 

In case you missed it . . . It didn't have much to do with her and she is so sensitive that she took it upon herself to feel super stressed out on my behalf. Not that her behavior wasn't super irritating. It was! But, she's 7. She's doing exactly as sensitive little 7 year olds do. 

I stepped outside and took a couple dozen deep breaths. I came back in and apologized. It felt good to say I was sorry. That yelling was my mistake. I hugged her and hugged her. She cried and said, "I'm just so stressed out. I don't know why." Oh sweet baby. 


I wish that homework had looked like this today instead. Probably tomorrow will be much better. Maybe as lovely as this.
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Kaht link
3/19/2015 06:05:22 am

Even I have yelled before. And stomped my feet. And slammed my hands on the table saying, "STOP! STOP! STOP!" I say "Even I..." not because I think I should be exempt from parenting stressors and triggers, but because when I tell people about my shortcomings they say, "Even YOU yell?" Yes, even I yell. :) Love you!

Molly link
3/22/2015 11:03:53 am

I think it's a crazy secret that probably we all do. It feels so shameful though that we don't ever mention it. Thank you for sharing and for mentioning it!

Monica Barrett
3/19/2015 09:24:36 am

This is my favorite website in the universe

Molly link
3/22/2015 11:01:36 am

Thank you Monica! The highest praise coming from one of the best people I know.


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    I'm Molly. I'm all in for parenting.  I'm all in for good food. All in for big and small outdoor adventures. And really only partly in for homemaking. I want a Martha Stewart home and meal, but the truth is, we mamas just can't do it all. Not really. This shit is tricky!
    This is a collection of musings and missives about parenting like you mean it. I mean really mean it. About how you can pull off a really mostly decent meal, keep your house kinda clean, do some of your laundry, and also even remember to usually feed your pets. But mostly about  how being a mama is hard and we can totally rock it, but maybe that dream of perfection has got to give a little.

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